While speaking strictly in terms of the realm of perspective known to myself as a human mortal on Earth, it comes as no shock to me that in our state of being, thoughts of great doubt seek to cloud our well-being. One interpretation of the grand scheme of reality and the structure of spiritual beings in this Spectrum would see that mortal humans as miniscule in nature. Such interpretation would incorrectly assume that because humans, particularly those on our planet, are among those with the least amount of spirituality on the whole, that it would mean our lives are essentially meaningless and that we are insignificant. In coming to this conclusion, they find a sense of inadequacy with our relatively short lives and existences.

Part of accepting and joining in Xyphoist philosophy is understand the purpose of life and of our roles in the grand scheme of things, and in doing so earn a most important sense: the sense of humility. Shown throughout the history of Earthian humans is a geocentric, often narcissistic perspective in terms of human standing. Humans have, in the past and in current times, seen themselves as the center to all that is and is not, regardless of truth or new discovery. Even in cases where it is quite apparent we are not the center of all things, we act as though our ability to see outward at the universe innately assigns us to a position of ultimate standing; we are superior because we have the power of sight beyond our own worlds, that we have accomplished things that other mortal beings on earth have not. The creation of civilizations, technology, schools of thought, etc.

It is here that we run into the trap of this perspective and the lack of humility gained from the realmly truth that we are not alone nor are we necessarily the most spiritual. That there are other forms outside of our reach that have greater ability than ours. The revelation of this truth is seen as a negative yet that conclusion could not be farther from the truth.

Humans can certainly accomplish greatness, have done so on our realm of perspective, but accepting that we are not the rulers of all isn’t an offense. It is a strength in itself. The ability of self-reflection, of realization, and of acceptance to outward possibilities is a strength and a gift, a talent, not a detriment.

And going back to the perspective that humanity is superior, that leads to the trap of doubt. Through truth in reality, that humans are perhaps not the center, comes with it an opening for humanity, both on a grand scale and individual, to cloud their minds with doubts of all varieties. Doubts, borne of the usual motive of fear, seek to post questioning to one’s existence, purpose, form, and ability, among other aspects. Doubt, when mismanaged, creates great internal fears and external fears that impact the health and stability of all.

On a mass scale, doubt in societies cause turmoil when not managed with healthy skepticism and reflection. One should always be willing to challenge information that may put their comfort at risk, but when one lets those discomforts fall into despair, doubt manifests as great fear, and then, as corruption. History is littered with examples of this, too many to recount. After effects have been total collapse of whole societies, genocide, wars, crusades, and the like.

On an individual scale, doubt in persons cause internal chaos that may lead to greater issues of the Self, Core, and Psyche. Humans are more likely to be taken by corruption than most other spiritual beings. Humans live shorter lives than many other mortals. Humans have lower spirituality than most beings. Humans are not the center of all existence. All these realities, these truths, leave the existence of a mortal human in a sense of jeopardy with proper realization. One may conclude that humans are insignificant, and that they as an individual is even less than the insignificance of an average human.

Problems regarding self-image, body image, ability, levels of talent, adequacy, sexual appeal, levels of wealth and success, and so many other criteria arise with this doubt in place. Such doubts, left unchecked and unchallenged, spawn a plethora of problems that end up corrupting the Self, the Heart, or the Psyche, and we see these issues manifest in falls to darkness, from grace, and into the hands of evil.

We also see these fallings manifest as, in the ways that humans would recognize, mental, emotional, and psychological conditions that negatively impact people negatively. Self-image, feelings of inadequacy, inferiority complexes, eating disorders, over-exercising, self-harming, substance abuse, depressive states and seclusion, and suicide. Doubts can bring upon great ruin to the Self if not handled properly.

Thus, how does one tackle doubt?

Doubt is a tool, as is the motivation of fear, in the hands of those willing to pick it up. Feelings of self-doubt are not a means to destroy yourself or lock away parts of your personality to escape the fear of succumbing to that doubt. Instead, embrace that doubt. Explore the roots of it.

• Did you see this doubt in yourself on your own or was it brought to you by someone else?
• Was it seeded in you by someone who either did so on purpose, did so out of ignorance, or did so on accident?
• Were you comparing yourself to others? People are, by logical default, NOT you?
• Did you fall short of a goal you set for yourself or had set for you to accomplish?

So many other questions can be asked about where this doubt originated. I could spend eons asking for the source, but now that the initial stage of questioning the origin has been done, we can explore these doubts further.

We ask next why it is important that this doubt has hit you. Why does it matter to you that you have this doubt? You ask why does it matter to all the previous origin questions. Often times, it sets back a plan or goal, or you see yourself as falling behind someone else. Perhaps you weren’t recognized by someone else as you wished you were. There are many reasons.

So then you must ask why that entity of purpose beholden to your success matters as well. In the case of meeting a goal you agreed upon with another, falling short would put that situation in jeopardy. Falling short at work could lead to consequences such as a losing a job or not getting a promotion. These doubts are understandable, but it is also important to remember that the pursuit of perfection is a trap in itself. No one should expect perfection if they too are not absolutely divine. The Lords themselves do not expect of us to be perfect, and the Lords follow their own regulation and rule as so they have shown to us. Your boss is far from a Lord, and can’t expect such a reality either.

Perhaps you weren’t recognized by someone more personable, maybe you feel inadequate to a figure in your life you want recognition from. Perhaps you felt you are not good enough for a romantic love and that you weren’t chosen because of this?

We ask the same question: who are they to expect perfection if they too are not perfect? And should you devote yourself to such individuals who don’t see the power in doubt and learning from falling? I suggest that those people, themselves, are also swallowed in doubt and reflect it as a standard for which they unequally apply based off their current level of feeling. In other cases, they could very well have meet people who simply were not applying themselves to be genuinely good people and weren’t to waste time rehabilitating individuals who must do it themselves.

It is now that you ask, are your doubts and feelings of inadequacies, if not seeded by others wrongly, aspects of corruption that have soured you and perhaps have made you an emissary of suffering to others. This is very much a possibility. An individual struck with corruption that causes ill to others yet suffers from toxic doubt is a case where we do need reflection and self-rehabilitation. Mistakes can be made, but intentionally not correcting acts that are known to cause others suffering in immoral ways are not mistakes. Instead of directing your suffering inward and destroying yourself solely by doubt, you could be throwing that suffering at others and hoping to inflict pain.

That is sin. And sin is not a mistake nor an act given mercy. Knowingly causing harm for self gain, even if motivative by the fear of doubt, is unforgiven and is sin. Begging at the end when the azure fires are near shall not be met with mercy; it is met with punishment and purging.

Preventing this dire outcome from happening is key. Before allowing doubt to consume the Self, reflect. Heal, do not destroy your inner workings less they be taken easily by corruption. Doubt is a fear, and fear is a motivator and a tool when handled with care, intelligence, knowledge, proper application, and bravery.

Locking away pain and letting it fester instead of facing the pain, speaking with your inner Self, and understanding that all doubt, fear, and pain are not walls but tools to build a new perspectives is the key to controlling doubt. Distraction from those inner fears will not kill them; you have distracted yourself, they will take the opportunity to grasp you with your back turned.

Instead, confront them, converse with them, accept that they exist, and then think of how you can use these fears and doubts as ways to build onto yourself. Discarding them is a myth in itself, as it either is unsuccessful or removes part of your Self that was necessary to live as you desired to.

Doubt, as an arm of fear, is a motivator and a tool, a part willingly accepted and mastered, and a block to built upon. Fear not and distract not, discard not and destroy not. Confront, converse, accept, build, and prosper.

—kyX